Why is the life I’m searching for always the one I don’t have? Viewing others live’s through videos and photos doesn’t show the mundane in between, but for some reason my mind cannot wrap around that.

I know deep down that running away from all of my problems here will not help them go away, but my mind still approaches it as a solution. It’s not a solution! It’s a perceived easy, catch-all way out. A perception derived through YouTube videos and random content that allows me to dream of a new, simpler life.

A simpler life is available for me right now. I have the ability to make that change and not move 3000 miles away. I can make that change now.