- Like seriously amazing friends
- Walkable cities
- Enforced building codes for safety
- Sunshine on bare skin
- Being able to eat amazing cuisine from anywhere in the world
Without work I am a totally different person it feels like. I am calm, outgoing, and patient. When I am working I am almost the complete opposite.
It’s frustrating because away from my job I really do love life. When the largest (time-wise) part of your life doesn’t make you feel good it really effects the rest of your environment.
There are two reasons I haven’t left, and have a really hard time thinking about actually leaving:
- Money (duh)
- Bipolar enjoyment.
This one is easy. The amount of money I make to the amount of work I put it is very very hard to beat. I really like nice things (wish I didn’t) and enjoy having the security of a healthy salary.
This is a bit different. I have weeks where I am ecstatic about work and weeks where o despise it. Weeks where I can’t believe I get paid to do what I do, and weeks I consider becoming a monk and reducing my burn rate to the bare minimum.
I don’t give myself enough time to actually make something happen in terms of leaving. By the time I’m actually thinking about leaving something happens and I am back to enjoying it and not wanting to do anything else.
Perhaps this is just how life is for me. I oscillate between a lot of things and have a hard time with consistency. Beyond being more consistent and persistent I would really like to have a more even keeled approach to work.